Day 1: Motivation

The Motivation

I turned forty-two on 10th of September 2026. Things turned for me, as I had no love in my life. No relationships (I am gay), no friends, no acquaintances, and family that hate me, are all rich, and couldn’t even help me with a place of my own, or support all my life, that would have helped. I am broke, with no friends, in a toxic house, and am trapped with no money or nothing.

In some ways, I wanted to say good-bye in a way that was meaningful, before I let go of this lifetime. I tried spiritual suicide, and a lot of things, happened to me, visions that came true, hearing things and insights of people and things that would happen a few moments after, and experiences of angels and beings, saving me from the bring, of death. In some ways, it gave me hope, but then I realised, that the experiences were fleeting, and the more I obsessed in hope, that some being, or angel would physically manifest something to assist me, the more frustated I got, that it was never going to happen. Only casual meetings, of professionals, over decades, failed professionals, and losing money, to no help at all, that cost a fortune, and leave me in a worthless condition, broke and alone. I realised the whole profession is a scam